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WICKED MEMORY
WICKED MEMORY(MEMORIES) NOT SURE WHICH YET...
I've had a new "some lyrics" come to my mind since yesterday... but I only have the "chorus" started.... The name of the song will be "Wicked Memories"... and something like "You left me here, but left your Wicked Memories to fill days with burning pain, even buckets of tears I've cried for you could not put our those fires, only months of rain could put out those flames... and in the blood stained nights, with your rattling chains, that squeeze my heart and bruise my soul. you left me standing, with all the doubts and fears, and a bruised & tattered heart plus a love that's grown cold..." I have MORE floating lyrics around in my head, and can kind of hear the music but this is a hard one for sure...
I watched on that fated evening you walk out that door .. just like you did a dozen times before... this time when you slammed that heavy door...yet this time your tattered picture fell and shattered glass all over the floor... pricked my fingers and made them bleed.. that when I felt the 1st pain of your Wicked Memory... my heart bound by that ball and rattlin' chains.. my days filled with your evil face.. nights haunted by that ball & rattling chains, bruising my heart with their squeeze making my fractured heart bleed.. you took everything but forgot to take your Wicked Memory. I finally fell down upon my knees... broken and bent.. Unwell to everyone it seems... impaired by thoughts of what we used to be and all that you left - that Wicked Memory.. all those buckets of tears I cried could not douse those melting flames, begging and pleading for the fires to fearlessly go away.. it took months and months of cold pouring rain, to put out the fires & stop those licking fiery flames.. As I built a coffin to put in what you left behind, on top I found a place perfect it seems, that where I'll bury your Wicked Memory.. I nailed it shut, sealing it forevermore... Under that old oak tree I buried it 6 foot under the ground., and quickly the tree was dead limbs and withered leaves, cause you wretched it with your Wicked Memory.. Now when she leaves you and she slams that hardwood door, her tattered picture crashes to the floor...shattered glass cut your fingers & pierces your cold soul, when you start to bleed finally you'll know about a wretched feeling of a Wicked Memory.. but don't come around here knocking on my door.. I don't want to hear your voice or see your face anymore... nothing you could do would make me love you anymore.. you tore my heart into pieces for that last time, as you did before.. so go cry your own tears in buckets of pain, I'll bet even months of cold pouring rain, will never put out her fiery burning flames.. and someday when you fall down upon your knees, You'll be surrounded by Her Wicked Memory...
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BETWEEN MY OWN ILLNESSES AND MY HOUSE DETERIORATING I feel CURSED, HEXED!!!
I am sick and tired of getting "well" only to become ill again within a week! The (C.Diff or whatever) came back after 6 days of going away... I still cannot pinpoint what the hell is causing it. And the one tiny spot (after just about ALL of the weeping Eczema is gone) suddenly the top came off of it and it began slowly seEping AGAIN!!! As I said only son's pot, think honestly I am "cursed", hexed... or something that... I know that sounds almost insane not a usual "human issue" in health.
But, to have SO MANY THINGS HAPPEN within a short time after Jim left in the wind back to Seattle, I have had nothing but grief and heartache... my Mom passed away, i lost my teeth and had to have dentures made, I fell and broke my hip and spent 5 weeks in inpatient rehab...lost both Tazzy and Bub's suddenly, got this C. Diff or WHATEVER THE HORRID STUFF IS, but it goes away and is back within weeks, broke my collarbone and shoulder blade, it seems it just continues on and on... I FEEL HE HAS SOME KIND OF HORRID GRIP ON ME EVEN FROM THE GRAVE! Hard to explain how MANY THING HAVE GONE WRONG WITH ME, AND THEN THE HOUSE... hot water leaks, then ruined laundry room with mold, toilet still need to be reseated, my lawn is horrible, and I can't get out and work on it as usual, too hot,, then all the illnesses etc, .... praying, praying praying yet iI feel hexed, cursed, punished for "something" and I have no clue what or why!🥲😢👎🔥💔☣️❓❓
Will explain more but broke my collarbone over the weekend.. took an accidental fall over my step that goes into my huge tub/sauna/jacuzzi
In process of opening up (older blog for music, and other items) & do blogging HERE in the lines of staying with CHRONIC PAIN/AUTOIMMUNE ISSUES (NEW)
I have so much of "both" more personal things such as music, and the link, that really does not pertain to "Autoimmune & Chronic Pain Illnesses, or Advocacy such as WEGO Health (now also Social Media Awards & a part of the Social Media Network)... and all that goes along with illnesses, medical items, from new biologics to the latest in using your own body's immune system.
I have been hearing about a technique that uses your own immune cells that are injected into painful, arthritic joints which heals your own self so it is more of a "personalized medication plan". Rather than antibiotics, NSAIDS, or other items, even surgery to "fix" the problems; especially involving your larger joints this was already and is being used to fight COVID.