Another one of those touching songs that can bring back so many memories, feelings, emotions, and wondering where either things were so "right" or where they went SO WRONG! Since I met my now "ex" in Seattle WA, this song really hits me about the beach... I lived right at the "Sound" the inlet that you could see from just about anywhere in Seattle if you were high enough, and it was always beautiful. We met there after first meeting online, talking on the phone, and then Memorial Day 2003 we met there on Alki Beach. At first honestly, I thought "he" was not "right" for me... and within a few dates over a couple of weeks, it hit me just how "right" it did feel being with him. I couldn't imagine him "not" in my life... thus our journey began...romance, dating, and doing so many awesome things in and near Seattle. When my lease was up on my apartment that September, I decided to "move in" with him and his friend, and they lived right over the water down in South Seattle... in Renton... 4th of July had been a blast at their house, and the holidays were wonderful... he loved to cook, and I course love to bake, so we had an incredible time cooking during the holidays... after his company closed the doors where he had been working, and we thought they would "move him" with the rest of the company to Florida. We got to go for a week, and I fell in love with Hollywood FL! I never wanted to leave...
Later due to jobs, my Dad passing away... we moved to San Pedro CA, again with the best weather, wearing shorts in October, and right at the ocean front not even 8 blocks away.... So, you see why "beaches, sand, and oceans" all have a place in my heart....
This song just stirs up all of the feelings that I "thought" I had gotten over, I had healed, since to this day, I have no real clue why he left... lots of things in between those 10 years... but nothing I thought would ever break up apart... we were "sewn together" at the hip....
Alas things changed, and I have too. I lost my Mom now, and most of the family are gone, other than cousins... and my two grown kids...
Love has made me soar, and it's shattered me to pieces, like shards of crystal from a wine glass ... and I keep wondering.. my thoughts are that I have "had my chance(s) at true love" and for some reason I just can't get it right... So as my heart bleeds, and my body aches... my mind is reckless, and tossed around.. each day I try and "find a reason" to pick myself up and find something to do....
