Showing posts with label fear of my own passing away. Show all posts
Showing posts with label fear of my own passing away. Show all posts

Saturday, January 9, 2021

Our Nation Out of Control, So much for a Hope filled and Happy 2021! It's almost a night terror

 It is to the point of being unbearable, and just not even fathomable to believe what is happening in this nation....


Thoughts....


As I Said below "SO MUCH FOR A HAPPY, HOPEFUL & BRIGHT 2021!😔 and if I said what I "think" I would probably have my home burned & be shot! Sorry folks I cannot fathom some of the things I've seen posted in places.... insanity, and now again rather than the focus on "COVUD-19" and the new strain that is already in TX, and all of those who have lost their lives or loved ones & now after that many people so elbow to elbow fighting, bleeding, breathing on one another... what about even worse than the pandemic than we already have! We don't have enough hospitals, beds, nurses, doctors, medications already and it just grows worse by the moment. What about all of us who are trying to "fight to keep well"? We are doing everything we can to avoid getting sick ourselves or making others sick??? We masks use curbside maintain distances, try and stay home, order online, sanitize, & I don't know about others but although I need a couple of things from the market today before the bad weather hits tomorrow, I FEAR going into any store..I am sure many will be in the stores not following guidelines and I am someone who really "should" have a vaccine... due to Lupus, RA. Heart conditions after 2 heart attacks, pseudo-gout plus the medications that cause me to be prone to getting sick & facing possible back surgery, but I have to wait, although even at a surgery center I still fear the virus, I have not started my new RA medication yet and should have 2 months ago, but feared changing it in the midst of all of this might cause me issues.. even my Rheumatologist does not know I have not changed. I am supposed to go to see him next Friday, but under what has happened I am going to ask for another virtual visit. even though he is in one of the doctor's buildings, they still are probably the largest medical facility with many hospitals... then I have to go to Dallas to have my pain pump refilled by the 18th. that one I can't miss, it has to be filled and the doctor has to do it. Then I was already hurting badly enough, and i guess due to this weather change coming, I could barely walk when I got up... I probably am in a Lupus/RA flare... BUT so many do not consider their consequinces of actions to what they can do to others, their families, friends & those out trying to help us daily. It is just almost unbearable and like some night terror in this country.


I am just completely frustrated with LIFE! People (it seems MANY have gone NUTS) I could not believe my eyes last night on the television! I completely turned off the news and watched other things... most channels were showing that horrid, terrible, insane scene in D.C.! To think I WALKED THRU THOSE VERY HALLWAYS in 2014!!!! When I went as an Ambassador with the Arthritis Foundation... and knowing how HUGE ND HOW DIFFICULT IT IS TO GET AROUND IN THERE - HOW THE HECK THAT MANY PEOPLE COULD BREAK INTO CONGRESS IS BEYOND ME!!!! I HAVE ONE QUESTION??? IF "HOMELAND SECURITY" COULD NOT "NOW THIS AHEAD OF TIME" AND KEEP IT ROM HAPPENING HOW CAN WE FEEL SAFE FROM "OTHER TERRORISTS?" WE surely have ENOUGH "home grown ones right here!"

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

My Emotions Run Amok Over the past days.....

Now as if I am not covered up with enough to handle, I get a "certified letter" while over at House #2 yesterday. I've got to now "change" things because of course they County knows Mom passed away, and they want to know the "status" of the property. If not a homestead, that means greater taxes come January. Well, it won't effect anyone as badly this year, because even like income taxes, Mom was here for half the year. So, most of that will fall on her 1040. As if there is much made in interest over the past at least 8 years... she did not even make enough in interest to owe any taxes now since about 2006, really earlier. She was sending in "quarterly" payments to the IRS because Dad did. But, that was before all of the "crash" of the stock markets, and the money was no longer making 11 PERCENT interest back then! Yes I said 11%!!!! 

We will never in our lifetime see interest made like that again. And with many not even getting a retirement, many having to use their IRA's because of job loss, etc... that is why all who are going to turn retirement age now and in the future, cannot live off of what their monthly SS checks are... 

The ONLY way you can is to NOT OWE anything, keep your utilities to a MINIMUM, and pray nothing HUGE happens that you need emergency funds, because you are out of luck in many situations when it comes to trying to live off of what you put in all your life and it was matched by the employers, but believe me, even if you worked steady for 25, 30, 45 or more years, it is STILL not enough to really live off of... That is why my Mom NEVER bought much of anything, she never had any loans, she owed nothing on the house, the car, all of everything but her daily living expenses, and then house insurance, taxes on the house, and insurance on the car... which all are enough to make you feel as if they are "bleeding" it out of you... and then I believe even though you may have paid in for 45 years, their is a "ceiling" the the monthly amount of SS you get... 

no matter what you have paid in all those years, you still only get so much per month back. I am not one to get into politics online or with anyone, religion and politics are just two subjects, that can cause harsh feelings quickly, but if we are "Trumped" we are "SOL" in other words "Scat out of luck".... 

I realize many probably disagree with me, but my feelings are with the way that person "talks" and how they put down everyone, we would be completely blown off this Earth in a year, with his tone, the way he talks about others, and his entire attitude... I could run the country better HAHAHAHA ... which that is truly a joke, but at least I would not be out calling people names, and embarassing the entire nation with his put downs, his racial remarks, his NO KNOWLEDGE of any of our Allies or Enemies... which Allies are fewer by the day... as I've said I am moving to a deserted island somewhere if he is elected.... anyway, Just like my ex-Father in law would have said long years ago. "In My Opinion"..... never forget him saying that.... thus so "IMHP" we are screwed and not good tattooed if that person is supposed to run our nation...