I cannot "predict" why we "lost" the lawsuit... I have given my "thoughts" on it, and feel the Paid off people and also lied on the witness stand... but I have no "proof" just a gut feeling... yet, what goes around comes around... thus I have to do nothing, one day... they will "pay" in some form or fashion, if they did in fact "lie" and pay off people to lie...
As mere humans, we never know what tomorrow holds, yet the prior years, we shall always "retain" in our hearts... I do feel "broken" and although I am trying to NOT been a "grinch" I am a bit agitated about the holidays... Yet I know I am not the only one... so many people that are friends, are going through such a horrible time right now... so if I can remain "healthy" enough to get through the pain pump surgery on Tuesday 29th, and then get my neck surgery, and my lumbar surgery, I think unless something else "breaks" my pain would be more manageable.
New poem below... needs some work, but wanted to post it...
Though There are Miles between us....
Where is that sweetness that found us years ago...
Neither of us expected such a loss or to feel so low.
How can two lovers combine & make plans for a future?
Within the blink of an eye feel as if all we live in is torture.
I won't take "we are over" for an answer after 13 years..
I still feel that fire burning, & I feel you do, yet we have fears...
Yet, stare up in the sky tonight and see the full moon beaming..
Now we can take those small "pieces" of heart with seaming...
Thousands of miles and many states between...
Never shall "rob" two lovers, who souls endless, "Us" a Team.
As sure as my heart beats, I pray the "distance" between us shall be gone...
Where those words we spoke to one another shall be what moves us along..
By Rhia Steele 12/24/2015
Break On Me... by Keith Urban
There'll be days your heart don't wanna beat
You pray more than you breathe
And you just wanna fall to pieces
And nights, those 2 AM calls
Where dreams become walls
And you just need a break
Break on me
You pray more than you breathe
And you just wanna fall to pieces
And nights, those 2 AM calls
Where dreams become walls
And you just need a break
Break on me
Shatter like glass
Come apart in my hands
Take as long as it takes, girl
Break on me
Put your head on my chest
Let me help you forget
When your heart needs to break
Just break on me
Come apart in my hands
Take as long as it takes, girl
Break on me
Put your head on my chest
Let me help you forget
When your heart needs to break
Just break on me
There'll be times when someone you know
Becomes someone you knew
But you'd do anything to change it
And words you wanna take back
But you know you can't
When the page just won't turn
And it still hurts
Break on me
Becomes someone you knew
But you'd do anything to change it
And words you wanna take back
But you know you can't
When the page just won't turn
And it still hurts
Break on me
Shatter like glass
Come apart in my hands
Take as long as it takes, girl
Break on me
Put your head on my chest
Let me help you forget
When your heart needs to break
Just break on me
Come apart in my hands
Take as long as it takes, girl
Break on me
Put your head on my chest
Let me help you forget
When your heart needs to break
Just break on me
Oh, when you need somebody
When you need somebody right now
You're where I'll be
Break on me
When you need somebody right now
You're where I'll be
Break on me
Shatter like glass
Come apart in my hands
Take as long as it takes, girl
Break on me
Put your head on my chest
Let me help you forget
When your heart needs to break
Just break on me
Break on me
Break on me, baby
Come apart in my hands
Take as long as it takes, girl
Break on me
Put your head on my chest
Let me help you forget
When your heart needs to break
Just break on me
Break on me
Break on me, baby