Here finally is some of my pics from the parade for the Polka Festival
on Saturday. The kids started home this morning a couple of hours ago.
It gets more difficult to see them go every time. It seems like they get
here and it's time for them to turn around and leave. I enjoyed having
them, and was happy I got to celebrate Logan's birthday, although a bit
early, it was the first time in a very long time that I was where I
could be with one of them for their birthday's. I think Heather's would
have been the last and that was when she was very little... but I got to
be with them yesterday for awhile, and Saturday at the parade. I didn't
get to go to the Zoo due to my neck still being in the hard brace, it
was so hot and humid, in fact the whole time they were here it was hot
and humid, but they enjoyed the zoo... and sometimes we will have to go
back when they come up. I just hope we get to see each other much
sooner...
since Mom is gone, it is much harder for me to be here .... of
course Jason is here and we see each other a couple of times a week for
the most part, but I truly miss not being able to watch the kids
growing up. And I so wished I could be with Amanda more. We talk almost
daily, but being with her is always so much better. We did get a bit of time together, but it seems we are always rushed, because there are
so many people to see, and things to do while they are here... As they
drove away, I felt the tears in my eyes, and I got choked up, life
sometimes is not easy. After all the hell with my neck surgery, and it
still does not seem "right" ... plus my thigh where the hip fracture was
is really giving me hell, and I know I probably face more surgery soon
on my lower back...
I just wished it would all go away so I could have
my life back.... but we all have a path to follow, and sometimes it is
just not easy... but we must do, what we have to... then Peanut bless
his heart has not been feeling well, I noticed him scratching, and sure
enough, even with keeping the lawn treated, and keeping him with drops
monthly, he had a flea on him, so I've been trying to use "natural
things" to get rid of them...
so between trying to mop with lemongrass
oil, apple cider vinegar, and I put a little bit on him with some
coconut oil, that seemed to also help the itching, he is a bit better
this morning, and I am already exhausted from trying to be careful not
to hurt my neck, yet vacuum with my small vacuum cleaner, and mop the
hardwood floors... and wash everything in dry it as hot as I can.... a
pain in the butt, yet with all of the rain, and now more headed our way,
it will be a pain all summer probably. I've got to start the "bone
stimulator"... but I think I will begin tomorrow. I want to get over
everything else, get my clothes washed and get a bit settled before I
began having to wear it a total of 4 hours a day, 2 at a time I can
split it if I want... and I pray next week, a week from this Wednesday,
the hard brace can come off, and I can drive then, and wear a soft
brace.... Wishing everyone a wonderful Holiday!
