I had an "episode" last Friday. It is something I had experienced perhaps 2 or 3 times in my life that I can recall. But, never like I did this time. It was early, and I was getting out of my computer chair, and began to yawn.... but then my entire body became "stiff"... like every muscle "locked down" and the more I tried to stretch out, the worse it seemed to be stiff.
I had originally posted my "episode" on Facebook. I've got to get out of the habit of posting there, when I have LOTS to say. I need to post here first, then put only a "bit" on Facebook with a link to my blog.... thus here is the post and more about this "Autoimmune Epilepsy" information I have came into as I did some research... And of course, I am "under the weather"... or not feeling well at all.
I've got some kind of stomach mess going I guess. I was having issues
yesterday with this very strange "yawning" episode ordeal. It's been a
long time since I've had it happen. I would yawn and it was like all of
my "muscles" in my body would almost "lock" as I tried to stretch. I
can't really explain it, but I guess the feeling would almost be like
someone having a "seizure" and all of the muscles get "stiff" and rigid
all at once. That is kind of the "feeling" I have with this. I've had it
happen before but it as has a long time ago. I already was very
fatigued and had a very nauseated stomach early yesterday morning. In
fact I took medication for the nausea before it got bad and got on the
sofa. And I also ran a low grade fever, like around 99.7 to about 99.9
yesterday all day long, had a severe headache, and my neck muscles are
so sore I can barely stand to touch them. Of course every morning when I
first get up, I really can't tell how I feel. My feet always hurt so
badly, I can't hardly stand to walk on them until I have been up and
around for a few hours. Anyway, I think my butt might be back on the
sofa today. I am still not feeling "great" at all. Probably a flare, I
am going to say. Unless the fever was to get higher than what it had
been yesterday, any lower grade fever usually goes with one. And even a
low grade fever will make me feel like hell, and give me a bad headache.
Anyway, I am still pissed because between the pharmacy and my new
insurance they still have my scripts screwed up. I am not sure if either
of them know what the hell they are doing. Plus I am already getting
letters from the stupid insurance co. wanting my doctor to say "why" I
am on one medication rather than what "they" suggest... well in the
first place the 3 they suggested are NSAIDS of which I CANNOT TAKE - due
to my heart and my stomach, plus what I am on is a muscle relaxer, so
why the hell they think a stupid NSAID should be what I am on is beyond
my thinking. I can already see it will be hell getting all of this
through and over with until I get a fill on ALL of my meds and see what
they are going to bitch about, and how many they are going to have the
doctors freaking send a form on. It just gripes my butt they feel they
know "more" than your doctor!
Anyway, the other funny thing that
happened last night! We were watching a movie and all of a sudden my
pup, Bubba started barking. Within about 10 seconds we started hearing
all of this loud popping, banging, and I could see "colors" through my
blinds outside. We ran out the door thinking something was very wrong,
and there were fireworks going off left, right and center, right what
looked like the middle of our town. We live just a stone's throw away
from the main part of town. This went on for about 7 minutes or more.
And it began to appear it was on purpose and professional. Lots of
dollars of fireworks were going up in the air and it was definitely
awesome... except for the smoke trail it left when it was all over with.
About that time, the phone rings and I told Jim I bet it is my Mother!
Sure enough he answered it and she was all in a tizzy thinking this was
happening just a block from her house! LOL!!! Then it dawned on me that I
remembered reading something about the City having a parade etc for our
High School Football team. They won state here about 3 or so weeks ago,
so the city was going to honor them. Sure enough I grabbed the
newspaper, and I was right. That was going on right around that time,
and I guess was the "finale'" when the parade and so forth was over.
OMG, though every neighbor was out, all of Mom's neighbors were all
thinking something horrible was happening. But, I don't think they could
actually see the fireworks like we could. They are just a bit farther
from the main street where it was taking place, plus the trees over
there are so tall, I think most of them were only seeing the smoky trail
it was making as they went off. Anyway, Jim got her settled down and
told her, I had read where they were having that last night, so that is
what was happening.... so far no terrorists were shooting off fireworks
in our town...LOL... guess not really funny since Lord knows where those
freaking nut cases are and what they might do. I think Jim put up the
"front page" of the magazine from France the other day and I told him
that may not be a great idea.... you never know when those totally
insane people might be and what they might do if they find anything to
try and pin on any Americans. We all know they absolutely hate us... and
we would be "extinct" if they had their way.... just insanity.... so if
I am not online much today, it is because I am on the sofa. I just
still feel really "off"... everyone else take care and have a good
Sunday....(here is a bit more on the subject of the parade and my Mom and her ordeal out if it....
This just had to be posted... it is funny, but it is also a realization of age, the quickness of times that things change in this world, and how the elderly get so ether corn
And if either of my KIDS tell on me for telling this story about my Mom,
I will beat your butts... LOL... but Saturday night they had a parade
here in town for our High School Football Team. They won state this
year, and they were celebrating 5 State Championship Wins that we have
had since 1975... well there had been a couple of articles in our daily
paper here about it, and I knew they were going to do the parade. But, I
don't think they mentioned anywhere I could find that they were going
to put on a "huge fireworks" display as soon as it got dark right after
the parade. So Jim and I were watching a movie, and the dogs "heard"
something first, and one of them barked a bit. Then we turned the movie
volume down and sure enough you could hear this loud "popping" noise
almost like gun fire at first. But, we both went outside and saw all of
these fireworks going off near down town. We weren't but about 4 or 5
city blocks away, so we could see it over the trees, and it went on for
at least 10 minutes or so. We still didn't really know why they had went
off, but what did dawn on us, is that it was done "professionally". or
the city would have never allowed it to happen. Well, about the time the
last one went off my phone rang and I told Jim, I bet it is my Mom...
now it still had not really dawned on me about the parade, so neither
one of us really knew why they were going off, but it appeared it was
done "on purpose", not some accident etc... sure enough my Mom was in a
panic... she asked Jim if we heard it and he went in to telling her yes,
we did, and yes we saw all the smoke afterward, and about that time
then it did dawn on me about the Parade for our Football Team. Sure
enough I grabbed the newspaper so I knew that is what it was, even
though they had not mentioned the fireworks. As Jim tried to tell Mom
what the deal was, she got almost pissed and said why would they fire
"fireworks" off right by her house?? And we were puzzled... she thought
due to the smoke and the way it came over town and she never saw the
fireworks at all. She thought they were doing it right around the corner
from her where our old hospital building is.... LOL!!!! Jim was trying
to tell her no, they were down in town around the old building and where
people who used to work at Ennis Business Forms parked on the "parking
lot" right at main street... well she wanted to argue so he just said
"okay" and all is fine... and I was indisposed at the moment in the
bathroom, so I would talk to her the next day. Well, I go over
yesterday, and she said did you see where they were trying to clean all
that mess up in front of the old hospital from that fireworks mess??? I
almost wanted to tell her to shut up about it, but I explained NO!!!!!
it was down by the old Ennis Bus. Forms parking lot, and we saw all of
it. What was in that parking lot of the old hospital is a huge dumpster
full of junk they have taken out of the old building there, and were
using a small bull dozer to dump it into that dumpster... it had NOTHING
to do with the parade or fireworks what so ever... and if she had been
that way all week last week, she would have seen them cleaning up a
bunch of stuff they were hauling out of that building... In fact I had
told her twice last week I saw them cleaning out some stuff and wondered
if someone finally bought that property... the building is in such an
old state and the code violations so many, they really can't "repair"
it, it would be cheaper to tear it down, and then rebuild it, because of
the shape it is in... anyway, she was still so pissed about the
fireworks, and then it was even more funny. I got home, pulled out the
newspaper from last Tuesday, and on the FRONT PAGE... a HUGE ARTICLE
about the PARADE ON SATURDAY NIGHT for the State Win in Football... but I
didn't see anything about the fireworks... so that was kind of an error
because with as many elderly people that we have here and especially
living relatively close to down town, I am sure many that really don't
follow our football team. So with the world in the shape it is in and
all of the stuff going on, I do feel they should have definitely put
something in about the fireworks and made sure that people knew it was
going to happen... like I said we really was not sure at first, until I
recalled something about a parade in the paper, and that is when I put
it all together... but Mom was still just pissed about it all... she
HATES FOOTBALL anyway.... so for her it made no sense at all.... IT was
so funny!!!! Just because she was so adamant that I was nuts and it was
right by her....LOL!!! and as I said MY KIDS BETTER NOT TELL HER I PUT
THIS ON FB!!!
Now
I realize I posted a bit about this a day or two ago... but I didn't
get the entire thing in there, thus I wanted to "repost" it with all of
the "good stuff" in it.... anyone who knew my Mom would totally "get"
why this was so freaking funny... I mean she is getting up in age, and I
know there are often things she just does not "get" anymore... and
maybe never had honestly. But, when I went back over there yesterday and
she was still going on and on about how they should have "never" done
that... and how horrible it was and so forth, I just had to post the
entire conversations.... so take this multiply it by about 100 times and
think of all of the "things" in life, her, like many older citizens
just don't get... computers, "automated teller machines", debit cards,
washing a car at the car wash, driving in the dark, you name it.... it
really at times is almost sad that she is so "frightened" of so much in
life.... here this year in August comes her 80th Birthday... seems
impossible, yet there is still so much that just either scares her
because she has not been exposed to it, or she fears learning anything
new, she absolutely does not even know what kind of batteries go in her
TV remote, and if I finally get her to write them down. and understand
it. Then there is no way she can figure out how to put them in the
proper direction.
It
just seems so terribly wrong to know she struggles with these things,
and without someone right here to help her, there would be a great deal
that just would totally be things she never could do herself, or my
other fear is her getting taken advantage of, if something needs repair
at her house... I have to continually warn her to throw away "junk" mail
- stuff like "insurance" for your water pipes, or people calling her
all the time about trying to "sell" her something, or get her to change
over her "electrical" carrier... they just target and prey on the
elderly people knowing so many of them either don't understand or they
have no one to "watch out" for them.... it is a totally crazy and insane
world we live in. Even myself, especially with some emails, for the
most part I can detect a "spam" or some "trap" email that can reek havoc
with my computer, etc... yet these "spammers" and others that send out
these emails get smarter, more aggressive, yet sloppier all the time.
But when you get something and it may refer to one of your credit cards,
or a company you may do business with, they can almost make you truly
believe it is a "for real" email that is totally critical... so if those
of us who "know" and are wise enough to "smell a rat" per se', yet can
almost be fooled, then people that aren't as educated, or have not grown
up with all we face in the daily realms through this walk of life...
then someone has to try and look out for them... I feel for those that
don't have anyone... we hear all the time how people get "cheated" out
of sometimes their life savings by these bullies out there....
