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I am okay all.... I have not been online the past several days. I have had several doctors appts, and finally got to see my new teeth yesterday. They will be perfect... they should be ready by about Jan 8th...
Honestly, I am a bit forlorn about the whole holidays right now. After losing one our own... such a shock... and thinking about how things have so changed right at the flash of an eye...
One moment we are young, with all of the family having INCREDIBLE and MEMORABLE HOLIDAYS... cousins, Aunts Uncles, Grandparents, Parents... and siblings if you have them... and within a breath's spce the decades have gne by and you find yourself in a space, time, and realm you cannot fathom it went by so quickly and everything has changed... nothing as it was before...
People say "get over it", celebrate for the right reasons, be grateful you are here.... and ALL of the things some people should really "think" before they open their mouths... and it includes me at times...
Memories of all of the good times, the good years... all come FLOODING INTO MY MIND AND HEART LIEK THE RUSH OF A WATERFALLS AND THE HUES OF COLOR IT BRINGS...
I feel like a "waterfall" in the cold weather of somewhere such as "Wolf Creek Pass" where the waterfalls are "frozen in time"...
I feel like I am "frozen in time" and I cannot seem to move ahead or step back.... like a statue..like a rare photograph like I am looking through the mirror of my life...
I have had things to do around here..some outside before it has gotten colder and we have had quite a bit of rain off and on...the sun is coming out now and if it is dry enough I have the last of the leaves to shred if it is dry enough...
I have also been FIGHTING WITH A SQUIRREL! He or She have been trying to dig into my roof or in to the laundry room again..so I have been trying to find a way to keep them from trying to get in... ALWAYS SOMETHING....!
I hope to get by the cemetery in the next day or so, to put flowers out on Mom and Dad's..and my Grandparents graves... I have the flowers... so if it is warm enough later I may get out there...
I went and bought another "sample" size pain of the next darker color than what I bought at first. Now I am thinking about doing it like my bedroom and using waded paper to look like it is sponged...but my bedroom is awesome... I put a tad bit of pain glitter in the paint.. and t only shows in certain light..it is incredible...
So, I may either pain a couple of walls one color and the other the lighter or I may wind up doing 2 or 3 colors and sponging it... LOL..so part off my wall in my living room have two colors of aquamarine paint on them...
The ONE thing and I have NOT broken the tradition but maybe one year I was in the hospital but I ALWAYS WRITE ON ANNUAL CHRISTMAS LETTER! I put one in the Christmas cards I "snail mail"...BUT I do not have but a few cards to send..all the family is nearly gone...and I am having a difficult time just even trying to decide what to say... I may write it but only post it here etc..and on my blog.... I have about 6 Xmas cards to "snail mail" out... and I may leave just what I wrote in the cards and not send a letter this year... AT least I wrote it.... and posting it HERE IS LIKE FAMILY IN MANY WAYS.....
I "hope" to have the energy to get these things done and hopefully come to the "emotionally and mentally" in sync to write the letter and hope to have the "under joyous" feelings I have at the time...
I KNOW the true meaning of this precious holiday is... and presents, trees, decorations, food... all are a part of it...but the real "REASON FOR THE SEASON" HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH PARTIES, FOOD, DECOR, BUT FOR WHOM WAS "BORN IN A "MANGER" long ago... walked this Earth as we do,,and much harsher conditions... to sacrifice His Life in Order that WE have "Eternal Life"... so Baby Jesus... is the true meaning... and all of the rest is in "celebration" of His Birth....BUT think about it...we..with ll of our toys, expensive trying to "one up" the "Jones" .... cars,, houses, technology, designer labels... shoes that cost more than most car or house payments....
We (and I mean myself included) should SEE the TRUE Meaning.. IF WE were in the cold in a manger... would WE be that HAPPY!? We we be that "grateful"? We would travel miles and
miles in the cold on foot..to see the Newborn "King"?
JUST "FOOD" for thought.....
