It Just Keeps Coming.... and Coming, and Coming.. like the Ever Ready Bunny

I am posting some of the things I did not get to post over the past couple of days.... more insanity... from doctors, from the government, from everywhere you look, more insanity in this land of and home of the brave and "free"???

This was Monday...
Well, I spent 4 hours at the doctors office today to learn ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!! I truly believe this doctor has lost his freaking mind. He tried to BLAME all of my "symptoms" on my HEART MEDICATION that I have been on for FOUR YEARS OR MORE! He in fact tried to blame all of my stuff, even my toes moving by themselves on my medications. Now don't get me wrong I do believe many of us are on some medications that can cause lots of horrible side effects. BUT, this man was a totally idiot! There is NO way all of the things that are going on with me are due to medication that I have been on for ever. I am truly ready to find another doctor. Dammit, I waited for 45 minutes before I went into the "little room". Then I waited another AT LEAST 50 for him... then I get this stupid shit about meds and their side effects, and how I am a "complicated" patient, blah, blah, blah... same crap I have hear, just a different day.... and then when I tried to question him about the incident with Jim, I got this long speech about how He asked the "Lab" for the right test. Well the LAB was wrong!! He did not offer to have it checked out... hell it may not even have been Jim's blood! Nor did he apologize for all of the freaking grief he has put myself, Jim and everyone through now for weeks... insanity....GREED!!! He wants more and more, so he uses us for his stepping stone... got the "full" and overfull schedule now, so to hell with us as patients... he is filling his pockets full... I was so hurt, disappointed, pissed, a little of it all when I left there... and guess what>>>??? I still DO NOT KNOW what it WRONG WITH ME!!! They all suck...

more on Tuesday....
Time to fire the doctor! This just sucks so bad because he "started out" as a wonderful asset to our community. I would have highly recommended him to anyone back just a year ago. He has just "went south" as far as I am concerned about 10 months ago. I began to see changes, like him not staying in the room long enough with patients, making us wait for him for a very unreasonable time, and never "apologizing" or explaining it. And then I began to notice rather than "treat" me as he did in the beginning, he wants to pawn me off to another "specialist"... and then he can't remember who he sent me to, or what he has even done... he used to remember or at least refresh himself before he came into the room... so he knew exactly what was your issues. Now he flies in and starts asking questions about crap that had nothing to do with the entire LIST OF STUFF I gave the nurse I needed to address. Literally, my appt was supposed to be at 11:45 am.... I FINALLY got in the room about 45 minutes later. At 1:00 pm he came "flying" into the room, and after me telling him a bit about my symptoms, he began all this crap about my medications and side effects. Then he talked about this illness called "polymyalgia rheumatica".. and that my "symptoms" could be that, "because he had another patient kind of with the same thing"... BULL, I am ME, not some "other patient".... well I got home and I kept thinking this "condition" sounded familiar... well HELL YES... this was the mess I went through with the idiot that did the temporal artery biopsy, and then made such a scene in front of me in the OR when I was waking up, that he is under investigation, but what makes it worse, I already went through ALL THE TESTING FOR THIS, and I DON"T have it... plus my "symptoms" do not FIT at all... even these "side effects" he was talking about from meds I have been on for years, "do not fit" my symptoms! YES, I do know that medications, especially as many as I am on, and the kinds, can cause all kinds of issues, I have many of them... but I know the difference I feel between a "side effect" and a "new" symptom for the most part. I am sick and tired of having to "diagnose myself" then go in and tell them what is wrong!!!! He is too busy being a greedy, money hungry jerk, and he is a coward on top of everything, he spends more time over at the hospital trying to win them over for a "position" rather than treating his patients as he should. He is not going to last very long here, if he continues acting like he does. We have several very new PCP here that would be happy to have a new patient. I think we may have at least 4 new ones, and several who are fairly new in the past 3 years or so... so he may think he is "wonder-doc" but I have news for him, patients can GO, faster than we came... I am just still so pissed off at him... I want to send HIM a BILL, for my time he wasted.... he ruined an entire day for me... by the time I got home, it was late in the afternoon, and I was totally wiped out....

more on Monday and Tuesday...
You know after he pulled the stunt with Jim and all of that happened, we thought the same thing. Maybe that is why he is "getting rid" of his "pain patients"... not because they are doing anything, but because he fears his own issues getting caught... he "seems" to have this "never ending" energy... so he is either going to burn out quickly, or he does have issues with something that keeps him going and going, about the like ever ready bunny, Betty. I feel lately like all I do is bitch about doctors, or something going on in my life. Hell, it seems everywhere I turn either a doctor, hospital, pharmacy, or someone is NOT doing their job, and I either have to do it, or fix it... or call, or write, or go to another doctor, or have this, that and the other test... and on and on and on... It is nuts that I feel I spend more of MY time "doing" others crap than taking care of my own stuff. People in general just don't give a damned anymore... just like this horrid situation down right here within 10 miles of me in Rice TX. Here this man kills his wife and three little kids (all below 10) and then himself... and people seem to almost be "complacent"... we see and hear about all of this so much, it seems just think of it as "normal"... well hell if it is! NONE of these shootings, killings, and night mare issues by those who choose to harm others is normal! From overseas to right here on my own "home turf' this stuff is insanity. I just cannot see how we as the human race can go on much longer with this kind of attitude towards one another. Yes, luckily we still have "a few great people" left, but more and more we see, corruption, greed, drugs, corporations taking everything we have, the government allowing this crap to go on, now they are allowing "guns" in schools??? Yet they are thinking about NOT teaching "cursive writing"??? What kind of crap is that??? Kids will not know how to "sign their name" anymore??? As much as I love computers, they are ruining our kids. They do many wonderful things, and help with so much, but they are also the downfall of this nation and this world IN MANY ways! They have caused people to lose jobs, due to taking the place of humans... they are becoming almost "too smart" as far as I am concerned... we see the "thriller horrors" where computers "take over" and kill humans off.. well that is not so much a fantasy or sci-fi anymore... they are getting to where they almost can "think" like a human... it is just scary as hell.... Now I know why so many times I fear leaving my home, and would rather be here. When things like this Mall Mass Murder overseas happens, and of course people think "oh well that is over "there"... oh well hell they WANT US, AS WESTERNERS DEAD! So they can come here and do the exact same thing! I would not be surprised at all for us to get another attack from those insane idiots. They certainly hate us enough to try again for sure. We keep trying "diplomacy", and as much as I wished it worked, it is to the place you cannot reason with someone who is nuts! But, I also do not think we should be over there fighting either... we have a definite damned if you do, or damned if you don't situation... yet we have allowed it to come to this... and then I look at things in "daily life" and it is the same, just on a smaller level... we "fight" for every thing we are entitled to... if we don't we are cheated out of it, even our own doctor's visits! I want to ask when will it end... but I should already know that answer....
 and yet more this morning...

And TX SUCKS when it comes to any kind of help for the disabled!!! I have to beg, borrow, and bleed to get what little bit of help I do get. Then I get looked at like I am a damned "thief" when I do use the assistance I get. They DO pay for my "part B", but I have to pay for my "Medicare Advantage Plan", which the cost went up almost 10.00 for next year dammit! Plus this year all I did was argue with them and doctors to get my bills paid right or paid at all. They screwed up every claim I think that was turned in. It has just been a freaking nightmare. But, it is the GOVERNMENT! You are right! WE PAID IN FOR YEARS WHILE WE WORKED, so this is OUR money. Yet, now it is not there for us??? What the hell kind of government "democracy" is that? Where you do NOT take care of your own PEOPLE??? It is total bull crap is what it is. Those money hungry, old goats, greedy, fat, lazy, incompetent asses in Congress ALL need to be FIRED! We need a total wipe out and clean up of them all, and get everyone fresh and new in there. Some of them have been there so long and do nothing but claim their paycheck every time it comes in. It is just like I said about them getting "paid" even if the "close down the government" and our Social Security checks are delayed, dammit they sure as hell have made it definite the GET PAID NO MATTER WHAT!!! Greed is the abomination and the ruination and downfall of this nation! We are headed for a great fall due to those that have abused power, abused people, abused money, and just abused, hurt, stepped on, and crushed their fellow man to get up the all might ladder of success. It is total crap! And lies, lies, lies and more lies... I do not believe anything they (the government) says and I do not believe most of what the news media puts out. They are just as deceitful about everything as those officials in Washington D.C. are. Every time I think about just how shitty we are treated as every day people I get boiling pissed off! Whether it be at the doctors, where we"wait" hours on them and that is okay, but let us be late or cancel at the last minute and see what happens... they can charge us anyway for not showing up and not calling 24 hours in advance, and if we came and had to leave, what do you think they would do??? But I have already been in a room waiting, and them come and tell me the doctor had to leave and they need to reschedule, or I can sit and wait for no telling how long till he gets back!!!! We should CHARGE THEM for the hours we wait. As I have said, why is THEIR TIME, MORE PRECIOUS THAN OURS??? Our time is just as important, so they should PAY US, when we have to wait like that for them. DO NOT book too many appointments like they do stacked on one another, if you can't handle them! But again, more money, and those dollar signs in their sight... Same way with the government, to hell with us, all they care about is lining their own pockets and sitting pretty for the rest of their lives! To hell with all of us who worked to pay their salaries!!! We don't count. They see us like a bunch of ants, more of a nuisance that anything. I have another appointment for tomorrow at a Neurologist I saw several months back about the double vision. He is the one that make the remark about me having myasthenia gravis. Now since I have all of these "new symptoms" crop up, I want to see what he says. I want to ask him if he thinks it could be MS? I certainly GOT NOTHING out of my PCP, but a bunch of gibberish about my "heart medication"??? What the hell that was all about I have no clue. Plus he did not answer about half of my complaints. Even one the paper they send home with you, those other things I questioned are just "blank"??? As I said I think he is having a nervous breakdown. Nothing he said made any kind of sense at all. He kind of avoided the whole reason I was there, a follow up on my Lupus etc... and talked about crap that I was not even there for.... crazy. It would not surprise me for it to be said that he is either leaving, or something. Something is "rotten in Denmark" as the saying goes... Well, (I wished I would get well)... other than that I guess we did not blow up the Earth last night, because we are still here... or at least my house and block art still here.... and I have internet connection, so I gather for most of us we are okay today... what one hell of a mess this world is in... I fear going to any Mall or large venue anymore... I already was very leery, and after this Kenya thing... I do not trust that they are not already here ready to cause issues at one or more of our Malls. People do not think it can "happen to them" and guess what??? It surely does....   Since this is rather long I shall write another post....